I love prayers and wanted to share this one I found online.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Cleaning out the Clutter!
Not the kind of clutter you are thinking. I'm talking about mental clutter, thoughts and ideas that are no longer useful. There comes a time in our lives when it's time to rid our minds of old thoughts---negative ideas that are no longer working. Put new positive thoughts in our brain, easier said than done I know. I'm doing it working every day to change my thoughts so far it's working. I'm feeling stronger than ever before.
I'm also finding it necessary to rid myself of people who are not anything for me. People who call themselves my friends. When I pick up the phone to call them they aren't available when I really need some one, or they start talking about themselves and their issues. Okay fine I'm willing to listen but "HELLO" I called you for a reason.
My latest thing is "my so-called friends" asking me to do something on a weekend then no call and plans. What the hell and you say you are my friend. I guess after the 1st time I should have known better, 2nd time and I'm just plain silly to think it's EVER going to happen and the 3rd time well that's it 3 strikes and YOUR OUT! If you were a true friend you wouldn't ask me to do something then back out with no call. Oh wait when you do call all I hear are excuses of being too busy...well maybe you are just too busy for my friendship. I don't know but, I'm not a door mat please don't treat me as such. You could try to make it up to me but, that isn't necessary. In my opinion just be there like you said you would be in the first place. I've had enough negativity and disappointment in my life. It's time for me to move past that and be happy. I DESERVE IT!!!!!!!
Oh the post about friendship and the person I said I'd want her friendship back. Well, after careful consideration...no I wouldn't want her back as a friend. She wasn't a friend to begin with if she can walk out of my life, calling me names and being nasty to me with no explanation she wasn't a friend to begin with.
If you want to be in my life and be my friend great I am here with open arms. If not that's fine too. I wish you well and hope life treats you kind.
"The only people you need in your life are the ones that PROVE they need you theirs"
I'm also finding it necessary to rid myself of people who are not anything for me. People who call themselves my friends. When I pick up the phone to call them they aren't available when I really need some one, or they start talking about themselves and their issues. Okay fine I'm willing to listen but "HELLO" I called you for a reason.
My latest thing is "my so-called friends" asking me to do something on a weekend then no call and plans. What the hell and you say you are my friend. I guess after the 1st time I should have known better, 2nd time and I'm just plain silly to think it's EVER going to happen and the 3rd time well that's it 3 strikes and YOUR OUT! If you were a true friend you wouldn't ask me to do something then back out with no call. Oh wait when you do call all I hear are excuses of being too busy...well maybe you are just too busy for my friendship. I don't know but, I'm not a door mat please don't treat me as such. You could try to make it up to me but, that isn't necessary. In my opinion just be there like you said you would be in the first place. I've had enough negativity and disappointment in my life. It's time for me to move past that and be happy. I DESERVE IT!!!!!!!
Oh the post about friendship and the person I said I'd want her friendship back. Well, after careful consideration...no I wouldn't want her back as a friend. She wasn't a friend to begin with if she can walk out of my life, calling me names and being nasty to me with no explanation she wasn't a friend to begin with.
If you want to be in my life and be my friend great I am here with open arms. If not that's fine too. I wish you well and hope life treats you kind.
"The only people you need in your life are the ones that PROVE they need you theirs"
Saturday, October 4, 2008
I Miss you
"I MISS YOU"
Do not say you miss me
I am not gone
I AM RIGHT HERE
Your words "I miss you"
"I want to see you"
fall on my deaf ears
if they had meaning
your actions I could hear
Do not say you miss me
I am not gone
I AM RIGHT HERE
Your words "I miss you"
"I want to see you"
fall on my deaf ears
if they had meaning
your actions I could hear
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Friendship
What friendship means to me.
I have recently lost a very dear friend to me (not to death). I'm still not sure to this day what happened or why our friendship suddenly stopped. I miss the daily text messages, the phone calls 2-5 times a day sometimes. She and I may not have seen each other every day but those phone calls, text message, myspace comments really made a HUGE difference in my life. More than she will ever know. Now, I see her when I'm at work and I avoid going in her direction, when I really want to wave and say "hey how's it goin."
I can hear her voice sometimes when she talks to other people sometimes I think she's talking to me.
All I can say is I hope life is being kind to her and she is getting all the good things life has to offer. If she ever wants to be friends again I would want that in a heart beat. There is nothing that has happened that can't be talked about and worked out. She nows who she is. Love you girl.
This loss has given me time to thing about other past/present friendships.
To me there is NO such thing as "I'm so busy with life I didn't have time to call or reply to that text." I had to forgive myself for saying those words.
In 1997 I kept saying that to a friend of mine Curt ...well I kept telling myself I need to call him see how he's doing. "Oh I'll do it tomorrow" well I said that one too many times.
On July 21st 1997, I got a call from my other good Friend Jenni who is Curt's wife telling me he's been a trucking accident, (he drove a glass truck for a living ) and he might not make it.
Jenni and I had a falling out a few weeks prior to the this, she was calling not only to tell me what happened but to ask me to get a hold of Curt's best friend Gregg. Everything that happened between Jenni and I seemed so petty and she needed me and lord knows I needed her. Gregg and I high tailed to Harbor View Medical Center to be with Jenni. We got in to see Curt while it wasn't the best of circumstances to see him under he knew we were there. He was in pretty bad shape.
We spent the evening with Jenni talking about Curt and all the fun times. We were up all night we were all exhausted but, the time came we had to call the rest of the family because Curt had taken a turn for the worse during the night.
I never got a chance to make that call. I never will either. He passed away due to the extent of his injuries. SO IF YOU THINK OH I'VE GOT TOMORROW....GUESS AGAIN YOU MIGHT NOT. If your mind and heart is telling you to call, text, or email someone JUST DO IT! Even if it's just to say I'm thinking about you, wanted you know.
Friendship to me is about unconditional acceptance, forgiveness, love, kindness, and compassion. I hold my friends near and dear to me. They come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
I have recently lost a very dear friend to me (not to death). I'm still not sure to this day what happened or why our friendship suddenly stopped. I miss the daily text messages, the phone calls 2-5 times a day sometimes. She and I may not have seen each other every day but those phone calls, text message, myspace comments really made a HUGE difference in my life. More than she will ever know. Now, I see her when I'm at work and I avoid going in her direction, when I really want to wave and say "hey how's it goin."
I can hear her voice sometimes when she talks to other people sometimes I think she's talking to me.
All I can say is I hope life is being kind to her and she is getting all the good things life has to offer. If she ever wants to be friends again I would want that in a heart beat. There is nothing that has happened that can't be talked about and worked out. She nows who she is. Love you girl.
This loss has given me time to thing about other past/present friendships.
To me there is NO such thing as "I'm so busy with life I didn't have time to call or reply to that text." I had to forgive myself for saying those words.
In 1997 I kept saying that to a friend of mine Curt ...well I kept telling myself I need to call him see how he's doing. "Oh I'll do it tomorrow" well I said that one too many times.
On July 21st 1997, I got a call from my other good Friend Jenni who is Curt's wife telling me he's been a trucking accident, (he drove a glass truck for a living ) and he might not make it.
Jenni and I had a falling out a few weeks prior to the this, she was calling not only to tell me what happened but to ask me to get a hold of Curt's best friend Gregg. Everything that happened between Jenni and I seemed so petty and she needed me and lord knows I needed her. Gregg and I high tailed to Harbor View Medical Center to be with Jenni. We got in to see Curt while it wasn't the best of circumstances to see him under he knew we were there. He was in pretty bad shape.
We spent the evening with Jenni talking about Curt and all the fun times. We were up all night we were all exhausted but, the time came we had to call the rest of the family because Curt had taken a turn for the worse during the night.
I never got a chance to make that call. I never will either. He passed away due to the extent of his injuries. SO IF YOU THINK OH I'VE GOT TOMORROW....GUESS AGAIN YOU MIGHT NOT. If your mind and heart is telling you to call, text, or email someone JUST DO IT! Even if it's just to say I'm thinking about you, wanted you know.
Friendship to me is about unconditional acceptance, forgiveness, love, kindness, and compassion. I hold my friends near and dear to me. They come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
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